i dont mean to direct this to anyone cuz i just want to say what i feel right now.

just got home from going out to pick crabs again and NO this time i didnt hurt my pinky. thank GOD =O. my pinky still hurts from last time… ): anywayy yeahh just sat down on my ugly chair that droped me when i tried to move forward when i was sitting on it.. . and just chilled here and updated on tumblr and such. that was about it and i decided i should put up some quotes. but then i realized taht i cant read it cuz i used a marker over it and  now i cant see read it normally. so i gave up and just decided to write whatever.

funny my sister is so random. why do you like jay park?

i just looked at her and she starts to climb like a monkey to my bed and said you want to marry him?

and i just smiled LOL .

shes such a loser yes?

and now i lost what i was going to talk about since shes so damn annoying ): <

is hard but its whats good for you and me . (you know who you are.)

and NO NOT  MY BOYRFRIEND ! . go FUCK YOURSELFS IF YOU PPL THINK THIS IS FOR MY BOYFRIEND ! ):

so lets see how i should start this.

how long has it been again? 4 years? my ass.

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in my eyes its been 4 long damned years. but i dont know about you . it might have just been 1 or 2 years. but it doesnt matter anymore to you, does it .. even tho were over. i dont know why but i have this stupid feeling caring for you . no shit! im not LIZ . but hey its been 4 year. it hurts . that i dont have you, i hate not having you here to bullshit about stuff with me, i hate now that you’ve changed for no god damn reason. i just hate it , hate it . you dont know how much it kills me instead that your the way you are . but i still care. even tho you bull shit about me. for no god of reasons to do so. i really do think your PMSING everydayy..  i dont care that you do that but like w.e i didnt do shit to you .. i cant help but blow it out one day. you and i dont know what i can do when i pissed . i’ve seen it happen once. and i dont want it to happen again. its just to hard.

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i’ve acutally never been that pissed since that day thoses bitches used my sister like a dog. thats a piss off. if you remmeber you should remember what the fuck happened that day. and it wasnt that good either. i blow and the only way to calm down was to punch it out on the portables and i was stil pissed.

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im sure i dont want to blow off like that again . but DAMN your making me that way . i mean COME ON i dont shit to you ever since then. and that damned note that i never EVER TOLD YOU TO READ. and now the whole gr probably knows about it. and its not my bullshit / there wasnt private on fb. and i needed to let it outt.

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but kid, wow i cant believe you get all pissed and shit when he talks me, i dont see you give a crap about other ppl talking to him. for no reason, you arent important in my life anymore. you used to be here. but now its just gone, not cuz i wanted you to but you just left. without a word just all this shit coming out of your month. i dont care now that your gone. i lost all that i love„ but still i have others to be here for me. i have others, i dont grab onto something and never let go (OTHER THEN MY BOYFRIEND EFF OFF BITCHES.) something that didnt belong with you either way. your going to lose it, your low on self esteem i know that but you have to stay strong for yourself. you cant hung onto someone and expect them to take care of you forever. things change the world keeps moving on. you just have to know to let go and for give.

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i know its hard at first but when you get more than just what you think is enough. its just not enough, you cant stay with the same ones forever. everyone has different paths to go and turn too .. but it doesnt combine with yours unless its meant to bbe„ baby its enough. its time to finally let go.

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dont think this is another note to BITCH at you ?  cuz its not its just so i have my life, goiing the right way even if i have to lose you . losing can also bring you more than what you have gone

so one day (april 20, 2010), i had this awesome idea, when hanging out at that crappy old school down the street. that once gave many  others and myself. wonderful memories with each other.

camps fire to sing alongs,

blue skies to moon light stars,

sunrise to sundown,

bullshit to bitch fights,

friends to enemies,

and more…

going down the memory lane with this adorable partner of mine. we’ve seen and remembered so much. too much “remember this .. ” and “oh remmeber when… ” . when we were a meter tall and now were tall enough to reach the top shelves. oh how we actually would miss this beat up school. like we thought we would . the playground just wow. those logs that we always used to wobble on. laugh and play. run and scream. everything around there. and that tree we loved so much we climbed on it . and breaking off one of the branches . . without knowing its been two long years. since we walked around. in that play ground which once was like our second home. and now its in our past. so much changes to the grounds.

so much more different lines of colours and words. and movement in the whole ground. the only thing that has no different is that big block that we would climb up and wish to lay there all night long watching those shinning stars. in the sky just wishing we would be as bright , in the near future of our life.

^ thats just a preview =O! . going to continue this memory lane soon.

a video is going to be up soon . wait and see

lets hope i have the time to do some video tapping in aldergrove, without getting kicked out .

❤